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| Registered: | Dec 9, 2008 10:09 PM |
| ID: | 84362 |
| Title: | User |
| Name: | Cayleb H |
| Gender: | Male |
| Pet choice: | Befriend |
| eeMail: | Send eeMail |
| Forum posts: | Forum posts |
| Achievements: | Member |
| Pets: | killerred, silight |
| Shops: | That shop >.> |
| Last seen: | 630 weeks, 5 days, 6 hours, 2 minutes ago |
| Later I havn't looked up at the night time sky in a long time. Maybe I've distanced myself from who I really wanted to be. I've gone too far down the path that I layed out for myself to do anything about it. I remember being a kid I would always look up at that star filled sky during the night and wonder if there is anyone out there that is just like me. Who shares my exact same pain I've felt for so long and continue to feel it eat away at my heart. Every star out there is like a person who carved their name down in history. I wonder...will I ever do something so amazing to be remembered by? heh. Who am I fooling? My life has nothing to be remembered by. People probably won't notice anything about me until my soul moves on to the next life. I once asked myself will there ever be a possibility that something will happen that will evolve around me to protect the people I love and care about. Like that will ever happen right? hah. When I don't talk to anyone I feel as though I made them angry at me or I did something terribly wrong that I don't deserve to be forgiven for. I once fell to my knees from feeling so much pain in my heart I actually wanted to cry, but never had tears come out. So many people have left my life that I guess they took my tears with them and left them with no emotion to go to when I feel sorry. So I guess I just let my happiness try to fill that. When I was young I beat up a very dear friend of mine. I don't remember what happened I blacked out and when I came to my hands had his blood over them. I let my anger get the best of me and became a totally different person. When I look back at that day I'll be in a dark place chained up and forced to watch myself beat up my dear friend. I wish I could take it back but since that person that attacked him wasn't me just someone that took over my body out of sheer rage I would never be able to forgive myself for that nightmare I lived. One night not too long ago I dreamed of being in a such a familiar place. A place I havn't been to since I last left it. I was sitting in the grass and I start to stand up and this black figure I've been haunted by comes up saying "It's time for you to give into the rage you've locked up Cayleb" I stared him down as he smiled. I clench my fist and a special blade I don't know how came to me and a battle for control and protection begun, but the results still a mystery even to me. A battle that will shape my story forever. Will I give into the anger I've locked away from others for so long and the rage that I try to keep in a cage that has weakened so much or will my desire to live my life without fear smite this darkness that has lived in my heart for so long or will this battle take my life that I've fought for for so long? Only time will tell and until then all I can do is keep the fires of hope close to my heart. | |